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Daughter called me, car was smoking, mine, she pulled over, turned it off, called me - in the throes of a nasty cough/cold I got up and going to pick her up and see what needed to be done to save my car (ha ha ha). Needless to say grubby dressed mom to the rescue? Part way there phone rings, answer it cause its her even though we aren't supposed to be on the phone while driving, daughter again, car is on fire! (hence the previous ha ha ha!)
I pulled up to where the event was just wrapping up, and was laughing, nope, no saving that poor beast, can't even get the hood up though I have a crowbar I haven't tested out on it yet. Good news, daughter was fine just a bit shook. As fate often has it, the event wasn't over - she'd stopped right in front of a car dealership and we looked at available cars while waiting for AAA (a service I will never want to live without). We had been considering what do to about her driving situation/needs, having a 1991 car when all you use it for is occasional trips to town vs needing a dependable car to get to and from work; had considered the options of buying another used one, getting hers as fixed as possible or buying new - yeah, we wound up buying new - if things hadn't worked out in our favor as much as it did, we wouldn't have, but we did. She will make the payments, build her own good credit rating and have a cute little zippy car to get to and from work in; we will have a new car for long trips to the big city or wherever we decide we want to go, so I get to benefit from it as well. I imagine we will use it for our weekend trips for groceries and whatnot.
The guys in the lot watching me pull up (to the rescue) they laughed because I was laughing when I saw how un-savable my car was!
Accepting the things you cannot change gets easier the more you use it - recognizing the powerlessness saved me so much self-inflicted stress and worry - the car was gone and no amount of fussing would bring it back. Accepting that the car wouldn't be saved and having to wait for AAA anyway, saleswoman, show me what you got since I'm trapped here anyway. Our local fire/amb dept will have a car to practice cutting up and my local scrap metal guy will take her away afterwards. The car was a gift to me when I was really down and out so its fitting to gift it back as much as possible!
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I am strong in the broken places. ~ Unknown
All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter another! ~ Anatole France
Oh goodness .. big HUGS .. and yes .. sometimes the only thing you can do is go with the flow .. that's why I always say I am powerless over nouns .. that works for me :) I love AAA!!!
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Faith minus vulnerability and mystery equals extremism. If you've got all the answers, then don't call what you do "faith". - Brene Brown
"Whatever truth you own doesn't own you" - Gary John Bishop
Great share.....so sorry about the 'death of the car' but so glad to hear nobody was hurt! (((Hugs))) - feel better and enjoy the zippy new car!!!
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Practice the PAUSE...Pause before judging. Pause before assuming. Pause before accusing. Pause whenever you are about to react harshly and you will avoid doing and saying things you will later regret. ~~~~ Lori Deschene
What a demonstration of program at work. Would have been awesome to have a marque up and out Addy saying "Watch this Serenity Demonstration"!! Thanks you bought it back to MIP home also. It works when you work it!! (((hugs)))
Okay, I got the threads mixed up.......sorry for confusion...
Accepting things I cannot change.....1st part of the S prayer and kinda step 1.....
for me, it was hard to accept being powerless because to me that was helplessness and that equaled doom for me.... so to accept things I can't change, brought on my fighting spirit....and OMG did I fight....I resisted everything that I did not want....any unwanted karma was an invitation for me to fight, even if it just meant raging and screaming...the ANGER made me feel powerful and in control
With me its all about control..I gotta be in control or I am feeling threatened, in a spot, in danger, etc...
I don't know if I will ever overcome this because I don't believe in anything outside of me or really , i believe in Creator, but don't see much evidence that anything but ME is working in my life,....Hence the need to be in control because if I can't be in control, whats gonna happen???? whose gonna give me the wherewithall to get out of this mess??or fix this disaster...add to that being financially limited and its damned scary
but I know, and I am getting better...I am getting better at accepting that I cannot change so and so, or fix such an such so I just walk away....leave it....release me from it....let the universe deal if it is even going to get involved but I am outta here.....
I was on line with Verizon today, ordering a badassed phone, not an Iphone 7 because I like my head phones, but a Iphone6 S PLUS..the biggie.......has lots of storage.....oh yea, rock n roll with this baby...anyway, I am on line and one thing after another kept bollixing up my order....the online chat rep was totally untrained in her work, quoting prices, etc., then waaay overcharging on taxes, etc., this order was going South, so I told her after she sent me to 1 wrong dept, after another, I was OUTTA HERE...letting this one go....I'll WAIT......so I left the chat...emptied my "cart" and i was gone....later, after I ate and did some stuff, I CALLED verizon and TALKED to a rep, who had his "mud" together and we worked a deal...less monthly and taxes were $30 less...he had no clue what she was charging AND he waived the activation fee b/c I have been with them for like 20 years.......so I was willing to NOT fight the karma but to step back....new approach and I got what I wanted.......I accepted that this on line thingy was going south in a hurry, so I just cancelled out and did another approach.....I was proud of me, not struggling and fighting with her and this sorry state, but I LEFT...I saw it was a "no go" and I bailed!!! so yea, I see progress in me....I see me , if something gives me resistance, I now, back off, look for path of lesser or least resistance IF I really want something...Many times I have just said to myself "how important is this?? how bad to I want it???" and many times I just walk away if it is a hassle.....
Just saying
-- Edited by mamalioness on Thursday 10th of August 2017 11:21:26 PM
