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here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
The sun is streaming in here- Wednesday. My little peach tree- on the front lawn is in full bloom. Ah kin pinch myself- ah, yes ah is still alive- still above ground right now.
Long ago i would have retired to the back of the yard- and left Alanon behind. Today's reading in HFT was a about sexual abuse. I did not experience that- But I did feel completely emasculated through my experience with the disease. I suffered from periods of gross neglect as a kid and that sense of abandonment never left me.
I find myself closely aligned with people who have felt broken and lost- for all sorts of reasons. I flip-flopped between feeling like I was the only person in the world- to thinking 'my life was not nearly so bad as that!' And this flip-flopping bought me healing.
This weekend we spend time with our son and family- a long way north of here. When I share- ah sometimes pass myself off as a southerner. But not as you might think- I live just north of Antarctica. And i come from a rural culture. Y'all come back now! ...
But family is family everywhere... I say it as "he whanau, he whanau"... family is family.
Bin through a lot of bumps and bruises. But I have sat amongst a lot of true and wonderful people. My sense of family is much broader than most.
David - great share! It's still Tuesday here.....if it were Wednesday, brother Jerry and I would be celebrating our birthday together - ha.ha.ha....
All I know is that who I am today, and how I am today is vastly different than before recovery. I was born into this disease and the damage for all of us runs deep. Recovery has given me a path to a different life and I'm very grateful. The only way I know how to 'do this' is One Day at a Time.
Keep coming back and keep working it - it looks great on you!! (((Hugs)))
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Practice the PAUSE...Pause before judging. Pause before assuming. Pause before accusing. Pause whenever you are about to react harshly and you will avoid doing and saying things you will later regret. ~~~~ Lori Deschene
Great share, David!
Brought a smile to my face, it did! I can just picture that peach tree now...
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"The wolf that thrives, is the one you feed." - Cherokee legend
"Hello, sun in my face. Hello you who made the morning and spread it over the fields... Watch, now, how I start the day in happiness, in kindness." Mary Oliver
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