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These days I am just enjoying my summer & relaxing a lot. I am so grateful that the sun has been shining every day lately. I am so glad I can come on here & express more positive thoughts. I have been doing the best I can to follow this program. Especially one day at a time. I am so blessed that I can say that I have time on my hands to do what is necessary in my life & not waver from the task at hand. Sometimes I get side-tracked for sure. I just get back in touch to whatever is most important. I prioritize the things that really matter like gratitude. Every day I journal a few words of gratitude. My sponsor & I text each other as well. She is amazing. I don't know how she does it. She just keeps moving forward. Her sponsor has been good to her too.
Well...you are all here to witness my successes. I have a husband who is in recovery & is liking getting to know more alcoholics daily. I guess he has finally come to grips w/ the fact that he is really useful. I am so proud of him. My friend told me a while back that he does things for me because he loves me. I thought about it. Maybe that is what marriage is all about. I guess after all we have been through, we are a success story as well. Tomorrow we will celebrate 19 years of marriage. It is our anniversary. Never really thought we would make it for sure. I am grateful that we stuck by each other in sickness & in health. Those vows are very important to me. I guess I am finally in a place where I love him too. I actually do nice things on purpose. I like to see him smile & say Thank you for my extra effort. It isn't easy for me to be honest though & tell him the truth. I wonder if that is a character defect of mine. I am still afraid of his reaction.
Next time you all hear from me I hope you will see me acting in a positive way.
(((Kathleen))) - so good to see you and to hear your wisdom, experience and growth in this recovery program. Also, I am so glad to hear about your husband and his recovery....just made me smile widely and genuinely as I do believe in miracles and love seeing them in action.
I completely relate to your views on the vows as well as the ups/downs that this disease brings to a marriage. As best I can, living one day at a time, I too have found my happy place, just for today.
May you both continue with your programs and growth and thanks for the positive, powerful share.....
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Practice the PAUSE...Pause before judging. Pause before assuming. Pause before accusing. Pause whenever you are about to react harshly and you will avoid doing and saying things you will later regret. ~~~~ Lori Deschene
Thank you for the positive update. Lovely to hear that some genuine joy is returning to your marriage and life. I to do believe in miracles because I have seen them.
What a wonderful, positive post! Thank you for the update!
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"The wolf that thrives, is the one you feed." - Cherokee legend
"Hello, sun in my face. Hello you who made the morning and spread it over the fields... Watch, now, how I start the day in happiness, in kindness." Mary Oliver
