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Was reading posts on line here. Its been a bit of a gong show here as I have been busy with new leanings. I had bought a truck and a camping tailor, to go camping. Need a get away on weekends. The learning has been huge. How this works, how that works on the truck and tailor. The Neighbors and U-Tube has been great in teaching me what I need to know to get things in order. I have a hard time asking for help but I am learning, I need to reach out. I need to ask Help me!
I had a boyfriend, dating for 1.5 months and turned out he was very unstable. I had felt so lonely and unwanted. Well, god, showed up. A girlfriend I had not seen in 6 months or more, contacts me and needs a place to live till August. Having her living with me till August in this house, has been a blessing. She does not drink alcohol so there is consistency. I do not have to worry about active alcoholism in my home. I feel such, such relief. I can go to sleep and not worry that she will be drunk. I can wake up and there is sobriety and peace and quite. Not madness and craziness like I had endured with the ex-live in bf that had assaulted me. Yes, we have court June 7th. I am not worried as I know my truth and know what happened. I was dead sober and he was drunk at the time of the incident. I am grateful, grateful and for some reason, I feel calm and assured that it will be ok. Things will work in my favor. I just do not focus on the ex bf and what he did anymore. Just stay the heck out of my life. Do not live in my space. Live elsewhere and I will live my life with sanity, calm, sober home. I have finally let him go and I am grateful. Being single and alone, I am so grateful for. I can focus on me, me, me and my life. I can choose what and who I will accept in my home. I can say NO, No. Such leanings. I have a therapist I still see and that helps a lot. I feel I have grown so much. My faith in god has increased a lot and he will be there for me, he will not abandon me. He will provide. I am learning that letting go, god gives. I am seeing this miracle. My friend, sober shows up and now at my home. Who would have known that god would provide better when the time was right?
I got the tailor to the lake, thanks to a sober man I met. He pulled my tailor to the lake for me and help me set it up. Again, I see god showing up. I now have to learn how to set up the battery and propane and generator for the tailor so I can have power. Again I am not worried. There are other campers there and I can ask for help. Yes, Me, I can ask for help. Once I learn how to work these tailor parts, I will be ok. I am so grateful, grateful for how god shows up and helps. I am seeing the miracle. Even though I am single and alone, god has not abandoned me. He shows up!
Just wanted to share this development. I am excited, I will be headed to the lake this afternoon for the weekend!
(((Joker)))) I too have found that HP works in mysterious ways -- so happy for you.-- Enjoy your new trailor . Sending positive thoughts and prayers your way
Good to see you joker - and thanks for the awesome share. Congratulations on the trailer and truck and lake bound plans! I am sure you will have a blast. Good on you for asking for help - that wasn't easy for me either. Keep doing what you're doing - looks great on you! Make it a great day! (((Hugs)))
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Practice the PAUSE...Pause before judging. Pause before assuming. Pause before accusing. Pause whenever you are about to react harshly and you will avoid doing and saying things you will later regret. ~~~~ Lori Deschene
I also have experienced the compassion, empathy, care and consideration from HP and the way HP has brought it about in my life. So stunning and loving and at which I can but reply "mahalo Akua" Thank you God. It is amazing what god will do and how god will do it. HP has many collaboratives which HP works with. I make myself available to be one when I am chosen...told where to go and told what to do. (((((Joker)))))
we live next door to a lake too... and take a caravan out there, whenever we can... ...asking for help took me a long long time.
Maybe as a kid, i never got help, even when ah asked for it... and when adults asked me for personal help it hurt... so I thought doing that hurt others...
getting to winkle all of this out- through sharing and meetings- better late than never... ...
Seeing HP's action's the world took me some time as well. First I needed to be sure to pray for HP's will and not my own as I did as a child, then i had to keep an open mind to see the gifts that often came disguised.
Thanks (((joker))) for sharing your happiness with your new life. It's a gift to read about all the hope you're feeling and serenity you're experiencing. Good reminder that hp is there and willing to help us each day. Hope you enjoy your time at the lake this weekend! TT
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