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The C2C reading for May 12 speaks about developing faith and trust in a power greater than ourselves. The reading points out that often we feel alone and that nothing exists that cares about us. It suggests that we reflect on some of the negative happenings of our lives so that we can see that even in our darkest hour, we were given the courage to go on with life and he did not give up. If we dig deeper we also find that the there is part of us that once what is good for us. It pushes us to seek peace, happiness and wholeness that is when we begin to doubt our doubts
When we feel far away from our higher power. We must listen very carefully listen in meetings, listen to music, listen to the wisdom that comes through our literature and try to be open to what we hear. We never know from where the message.will come
The quote is from Sydney. Lovett; "every now and again take a good look at something not made by hands, mountain is still Street. Then there will come to you, wisdom and patience and solace and above all, the assurance that you are not alone in this world."
this is great reminders and news for me this am,that my hp is there for me,if hp can move mountains he can change me also.
great day everyone,,long journey it is,but also very awesome,doable.......hugs lu
-- Edited by lookingup on Saturday 12th of May 2018 06:03:29 AM
Hello LU Great page. Thank you for sharing. I know that I have been given many difficult challenges in my lifetime and feel absolutely sure that during the worst of times I was not alone. The courage and wisdom i needed to keep showing up was deep within and all i needed to do was to tap into it. I have also experienced a great awakening to he positive times in my life when HP was present and am ever so grateful
prayer and meditation, as the 11th step suggests is so important.
Have a great day and Thanks for your service
Hi LU and HR! Thank you for the shares. It always amazes me how c2c and odat are so spot on. (I've been lurking again)
The part that says, deep down there is a part of me that wants what is good for me etc really spoke (speaks) to me this past week. I finally got insurance! Finally get to go to Physical Therapy and wow oh wow, without all the specialists and do this x-ray, nope do this ct-scan and then the finally well lets do an MRI again BS. ROFL. My hopes are so high, perhaps too high........but for the possibility of returning to driving trucks again after 8 long years of health battles.
Then it all hit!!! Within the span of a short few days. All heck broke loose here at home. I went through a bottom out that was deeper than I've experienced in a very long time with heartbreak, reality and the what if's. Also the what should I do if this or that and so forth.........and of course my own anger at self for the denial, and anger at the A for being so deceptive. Then........after a few days of music, nursing a horrific headache (stress induced I'm sure) and lack of sleep, the light bulb and program kept coming back in. Maybe there are times there is a "healthy anger?" Regardless of whether it's health or not I realized a few things.
Stress causes real physical issues on top of the ones already present and/or starts them if we don't have any. If we don't work the program it grows. I am so grateful it was a brief episode and I realized above all, caring for self has to include all areas. It isn't just about being able to get into PT, it's also about caring for myself enough to keep peace in my life regardless of what is going on around me. Putting the program into action. Turning all over to my HP and putting that deep down "wanting to do what's good for me" into ACTION in all areas.
It's a good day today regardless of the mess surrounding me. That is amazing and that is what this program and fellowship does when the A's in my life are off the wall in their illness.
Hey all - thanks for the ESH and shares. Thank you LU for your service and the daily. I have had 'a day'.....and I have no doubt that I am tired - exhausted - completely worn out.
We made it to the graduation and I am a proud mom. My son has truly battled this disease, and many other 'life issues' to get to this point in his life. Yet, the day did not go without some heart-ache and sadness. Nobody (there are 30+ local) from my mother's side of the family showed up. Not a single person and my son noticed and so did I. It made me very sad and it made him sad too.
I was raised that 'family is first'. My whole life, I've gone to all events in support of the family. Grad. parties, baby showers, wedding showers, weddings, and more over and over and over again. And - nobody showed up. It is very hard to NOT take this personally and I am using my tools to shorten my pity party but I am hurt and I am sad.
As my go-to is anger, I really, really wanted to go 'there'. I know deep in my heart that's not the best reaction as it makes me regress and want to 'keep score'. I am instead focusing on the basics - Trusting God, Cleaning House and Helping Others. In spite of my feelings right now, I am working to accept that there is something for me to learn in all this. And....I am stuck in the pause as if I had my way, I'd be disowning a whole lot of family right about now.
I really had low/no expectations yet had hope that some would come and support my son. I am strongly holding onto 'When in Doubt, Don't'....I am grateful for a place to come and share and looking forward to the new day tomorrow after I've had some rest. It's unfortunate that tomorrow is Mother's Day and I have no plans...
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Practice the PAUSE...Pause before judging. Pause before assuming. Pause before accusing. Pause whenever you are about to react harshly and you will avoid doing and saying things you will later regret. ~~~~ Lori Deschene
