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Love you all and just want to let you know my feelings right now.
I'm getting better every day. I'm going to go visit my sister this weekend and let some balloons go. Yep that's what I want to do......over the Colorado River. I have to get Will's belongings this afternoon and I'm sure that's not going to a party but it is what it is. I hope I don't bawl to much. I'm not liking this crying all the time so it's time to stop and accept that he is with God and at peace. Oh I'm so grateful he is finally at peace.
Will was in so much pain...pain I could never understand completely and never able to help him with. He had demons that only him and him alone understood. It hurts deep inside....really hurts.
I will move on and remember my loving and wonderful son that gave me wondrous joy but also tremendous pain. He was my life and I will never forget him. I can only pray that someday I will see that beautiful face again and give him the biggest hug ever..
((( HUGS EVERYONE ))) Keep on keeping on
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Lord, put your arm around my shoulder and your hand over my mouth
Speak only when you feel that your words are better than your silence.
((Cathy)) Continued prayers and positive thoughts going out to you. . Releasing the balloons is indeed a powerful salute and an internal release. Glad you are planning this.
Love you back Cathy. I'm under a very bright blue autumn sky just now and sending you the clear peaceful comfort of Gods day in my thoughts on your travels. We are never alone.
((((Cathy)))) Keep in mind that he and you both are children of Higher Power and are both loved unconditionally constantly. Have you all in my prayers. ((((hugs))))
(((Cathy))) - prayers and positive thoughts continue each day for you and your son! So glad to hear you are doing what appears to be the next right thing! We are here for you in anyway we can be...
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Practice the PAUSE...Pause before judging. Pause before assuming. Pause before accusing. Pause whenever you are about to react harshly and you will avoid doing and saying things you will later regret. ~~~~ Lori Deschene
