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There are currently police and fire trucks in my street and a horrific smell. Someone set the neighbour's car on fire.
There has been a spree of destruction lately not just in my area but across the state; particular gangs near me have been torching cars, smashing windscreens, attacking pets, just randomly and with no apparent rhyme or reason. It's pretty awful, senseless and frightening. Until tonight our area was quiet although there have been a few fires lit throughout the suburb in recent months but this is a bit close for comfort and they tend to target entire streets
Honestly I am working so hard on not being paranoid and not constantly thinking something bad will happen therefore I must not be hyper-vigilant when in reality, actually, I probably should.
On a completely different note, I asked his majesty if I could borrow $50 for a couple of days as I am broke; it shouldn't be a big deal as I have lent him THOUSANDS over the years and waited many years for repayment so a fifty till payday should be no drama. Well he said yes, sure, but later in the conversation I mentioned there is a movie out we could see and he said "Hey I don't mind lending you cash for urgent things but don't go spending it on movie tickets, geeze".......
Do you even KNOW how many times he didnt repay me because he was gambling/drinking/spending the money on whistles and farts? It took him 6 YEARS to repay me money he borrowed 'for a month". So, lol. Why am I seething? It's pretty ridiculous to get upset about it. But then again it's probably better than listening out for the sounds of my car exploding.
Gah.
-- Edited by missmeliss on Wednesday 18th of May 2016 10:06:47 AM
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If I had a world of my own, everything would be nonsense. Nothing would be what it is, because everything would be what it isn't. And contrary wise, what is, it wouldn't be. And what it wouldn't be, it would. You see? (Lewis Caroll)
I hear you.r These are indeed painful lessons my dear but oh so powerful. I found that all was well, if I learned the lessons so as to not repeat my old behavior . Positive thoughts on the way.
Too bad those thugs didn't set His Majesty's wallet on fire instead ... but I am in a cranky mood today, so I'm glad you have a more forward-looking attitude.
