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I've been busy and haven't been on here in a while. But, a lot has been happening. I go back to work tomorrow. I'm going to be getting pictures of my daughter soon. I think I may have had a miscarriage. Boyfriend still isn't drinking and his daughter went back to her mother's about a week ago. I've had a couple of interviews for a second job.
Everything is pretty much self-explanatory except for the possible miscarriage. I've been on the pill, so I'm not sure. I started bleeding a week before I was supposed to have my period, but it was really thick and clotty and kept starting and stopping. And a couple of nights ago, I woke up with horrible, excruciating pain in my abdomen. John thought I was having a nightmare and went to wake me up, but I told him I was already awake but I was hurting and he got really concerned. It lasted about 10 minutes, then went to random twinges for a few hours. So, I'm not sure if it was a miscarriage or not. If it was, I guess I feel slightly sad but I'm not incredibly upset. I don't mean to sound heartless or insensitive to people who had devastating miscarriages, but if I lost a baby, I didn't even know that I was pregnant. I lost something that I didn't even know I had. I didn't have a chance to get attached to a baby or excited or to make plans or anything. I feel sad about the loss of a possible life. I don't know. Is this a normal way to feel?
Sis you are sensitive which isn't bad...we fellows in Al-Anon are thick with feelings as you have already learned...We care about everyone including alcoholics, addicts, families of alcoholics and addicts and thousands more...we care like God cares. Hoping you will be fine and get that bleeding checked out. (((hugs)))
((WL))Missed you and am glad to see you back, updating us and allowing MIP to support you during this challenging time. Be gentle with yourself and do keep coming back.
PS great news about getting the pictures and returning to work .
Keep an eye on your health so you know whats
really Going on. It could have been something
else. Cyst or something, the pill usually stops
them from growing. Get yourself checked out.
Big hugs, glad about your job and pictures
coming soon.
Thanks. I'm on the pill and I've never had an issue with it failing before. It could just be my body being weird because of stress. I don't have insurance and I can't afford a visit to the doctor.
((((((whiskeylullabye)))))). Stress is very bad on our bodies,so do get some much needed rest and treat yourself good being gentle with you, maybe even meditation ........lots of hugs going out to you (((((WL)))))......LU
It is good to "read" you. I understand about not having insurance. I've been there. Make sure you are drinking plenty of water. I hope that the health issues have passed.
I'm excited to hear that you are back at work, and anticipating the baby pictures. Keep strong. Sending you big hugs.
