I'm always grateful for the little and big things .. I still have not been hired on full-time and I'm really ok with that, it's been a little overwhelming in terms of the unknown .. I guess after so much going on it's ok. 

We are getting more settled and things are going in a positive productive way.  My XAH is completely checked out, I think the last time the kids heard from him was over 3 weeks ago.  I will be able to finish our move this next month which is a huge relief.  I'm looking for a way to get the kids back into therapy at this point.  Not because there is anything wrong .. because they need that place to talk about things and work through their feelings.  Neither of them are open to going to Alanteen and I'm hoping that which ever counselor they go to will encourage them so maybe it will be different coming from another adult vs me.  We have a couple little trips planned and some fun outings to do .. kids will be another year older this next month. 

Work is going .. I'm still dealing with the issue of boundaries however that seems like it will resolve itself.  I'm very grateful.  It's been interesting to watch this all unfold and really do my dangest to stay out of it.  Which is new and different for me.  I'm still moving forward to take care of myself although I've been very good not to give a knee jerk reaction to any of the situations happening around me. 

Until they tell me not to come in I will just keep showing up.  I'm so very grateful I have more people than not who will stand and give me a great reference. 

There really isn't a lot to tell.  Well there's a lot to tell .. LOL .. there is nothing worth writing about at the moment. 

My boy went and earned 2 medals in choir.  He made me laugh big time.  This was a huge deal .. my shy boy singing in front of a judge and audience .. I was just shocked.   He actually had a solo with his boys choir and did wonderfully ranked number 1 in the district!!  He's struggling in school and honestly I'm not horribly worried girl did the same thing so I'm letting it go at the moment.  It's one class and I just remember how my mom used to make me feel that my grades defined me as a person.  What do you know I failed more than one class and was shamed and guilted about it. 

My daughter is doing very well in school and has a bit of a crush which we had the funniest thing happen today.  Ran into the boy at the grocery store .. LOL! I swear normally I am not at a loss for words, as I am trying to fade into the background which to know me is to love me so not my style .. LOL.  However you want to talk about awkward .. we say hello .. introduce very nice, very cute kiddo.  My daughter SILENT .. boy .. SILENT .. me trying to hold a conversation .. alone.  The woman behind me thought I was a college student and said you must like him you were so red .. I like to DIE .. we are talking about a 10th grade BOY!! .. I said NOOOOOO .. this one is HERS pointing to said daughter.  I was embarrassed for her .. you would think all of the years of living with me the child would have the gift of gab .. not so much.  Girl and I laughed so hard all the way home and I made the comment to her because she was grumbling to herself about how she blew it and I said I bet money that boy is texting you within 10 min of us walking in the door.  If he does that kid LIKES you.  LOL!  She was so mad at me saying mom .. here I am trying to take it a moment at a time and you put a timeline on it.  Oh please .. I have been a teen girl I know when a boy likes a girl .. that boy likes that girl.  Sure enough .. I think it took all of 5 min they proceeded to have a 2 hour conversation .. via text .. I did tease and say umm honey .. what are you going to do when you actually have to TALK to that boy!!  You guys are just going to stare at each other .. LOL!!  It's been fun watching her navigate her first real Texas crush.  She's got some big plans for college and things to do. 

No dating for me still just to busy at the moment.  I haven't even had time to shoot pool which I love and miss.  I've not made it to many concerts lately.  I'm planning on seeing Josh Turner and Ronnie Millsap if possible that will be in the next month.  So life moves forward regardless of where I want to hold it. 

Other than that it's all good.  I'm grateful for that fact. 

Hugs S :)