I've mentioned before that my A and I share a birthday and that every year has been a miserable disaster where we make plans and then instead he gets drunk and I cry and we stay home.

So this year he has been announcing grand plans to have a special night together and I was getting excited about it. We chose a venue together and we agreed we would book and pay this week as is required by the venue. So on the morning of that day he messaged me to say he's "so sorry but he can't make his scheduled repayment to me as he has to buy fuel for his mower so he can get some work and pay me back faster". Oh bulldust, he had obviously spent his pay on booze and gaming. How much does it cost to put fuel in a mower? Not $300 I'm pretty freaking sure. So I reminded him that we were meant to book our night out and pay the fee and that I had been counting on his repayment for my half of the cost too. I was met with dumb silence and "Oh, I didn't know booking meant we had to PAY". (We had explicitly discussed the cost). Then more silence and then he kept asking "so what do you want to do Mel? We can still do something, what do you want to DO?"

So another year of big promises and plans followed by him suddenly having no money- through no fault of his own of course- and asking me repeatedly and "innocently" what I want to do for our birthday....what answer can I give? "Oh well honey I think we should drive into the forest and shoot wild pigs and cook them over a campfire. I'll wear an evening dress and get your suit pressed for the occasion". There is no answer, it's just what he does so that we can do nothing, he can come over (he thinks) and drink and be horrid and then tell me later that "he wanted to do something but I wouldn't pick anything to do".

The crazy bit is I was actually exited and expecting it to be different this year and then crestfallen and angry when I realised I had been duped again!! Just ridiculous. So at least this year I am not obliged to be around and can go an do something else. But it's amazing that I still responded exactly the same way that I always have!!! Even after not seeing him for months I still jumped up wagged my tail when he seemed to be offering something good at last. GRRRRRR!!!