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Less than one week ago I was writing here how difficult it was for me to take the decision to quit my Sunday job. I have been thinking about it for a long time but I didn't do it before because I was too worried about putting other people's needs first and also worried about the money.
Today, at the end of the working day, the big boss approaches me, out of the blue and basically invites me to another job role at the school increasing my hours, responsibility, experience and learning. Better still, to start on Monday, two days away! I was stunned as I was so worried about people judging my performance negatively (hence the QTIP thread) and I am very excited to think that they probably see my potential. Yey! This was my dream. Honestly, I started dreaming with a job like this around 5 years ago. I have been working towards it and now HP is dropping it on my hands. I am so grateful.
So basically I am going to be very busy now. I used to start working at 11.45am with the 3 years old. Now I will start at 9am with the 5 years old, having the opportunity to work alongside other people in other part of the school and then go back to the 3 years old for the afternoon. After school I have my second job until around 6 or 7pm (or even later depending on the day) so I would have to quit my Sunday job even if I didn't want to.
I have a lot to catch up with my course work that needs to be done by the 6th, and I was postponing for the next week thinking I could use my mornings. Big mistake. Oh well, I will need to do it this Saturday and Sunday night and the rest of the week during the night. Never mind. I will have lots of time to relax over the festive season, since I am not planing anything major.
So yes, life is moving forward so quickly. I feel like growing up. Just need to convince myself that it is ok to go get my nails done professionally, why not? I have been trying to convince myself to do it since the day I decided to separate, then changed for when AH moves out, than changed for just before Christmas, now I want to do it tomorrow...but I feel wrong. I can afford, this is not the problem. I just can't treat myself, I don't know why? Tell me to do it!
(edited to correct spelling mistakes ;)
-- Edited by Luiza on Friday 28th of November 2014 05:04:39 PM
-- Edited by Luiza on Friday 28th of November 2014 05:16:33 PM
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Sometimes the smallest step in the right direction ends up being the biggest step of your life. Tip toe if you must but take the step.
Wow, promotion. That is a big word. Didn't even came into my head until you mentioned it aquamon.
I need to make sure they give me a new contract with everything written down on a official paper. I like to be organised. They are fab but a bit chaotic at times. Funny, you don't see those things until you are 'inside'.
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Sometimes the smallest step in the right direction ends up being the biggest step of your life. Tip toe if you must but take the step.
Yes PP, affirming my love for myself. I think I can use this 'excuse' LOL.
I am so glad that A was the one who moved out of the home, not me. I would never find something affordable in this area. I would lose my job at school and my second job at home.
HP has been so good to me, I can't thank him enough. Yey!
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Sometimes the smallest step in the right direction ends up being the biggest step of your life. Tip toe if you must but take the step.
The peacock is me wearing my wedding dress to celebrate my marriage to myself. LOL. I am spending too much time with the kids and going cuckoo. So grateful for my job with the kids. Their forgiveness, honest love and sincere smile makes such a difference in my life.
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Sometimes the smallest step in the right direction ends up being the biggest step of your life. Tip toe if you must but take the step.
Oh, I love this!!! It is so confirming for me to hear this. I am, against my common sense, trusting that the right doors will open for me at just the right time. I am sooooo glad this is happening for you! Now, about this self-pampering thing. It's an old habit to feel bad about treating yourself. Stop it! Go get your nails done, and why not the toes as well? Celebrate that your qualities were not just recognized, but needed and appreciated!
You Ladies Rock!!! Just like the Al-Anon Ladies that nurtured me when I first arrived. I loved this post or maybe it was (LOL) my female side that you taught me I had.
I am so so happy for you, Luiza!! Yep, you definitely need to do something nice for yourself. Good Luck and Best Wishes with the new joy!!! I know you will do GREAT!
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Look for the rainbow after the storm, and I'm sending you a double dose of HOPE. H-hold O-on P-pain E-ends
