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I had a good productive week things are still not happing as fast as I want but maybe this is the way it has to be for me . Since I can only handle one thing at a time . It took me to get to my extream lowest to start closing up to isolate to attemp self harm because I though it would be the best thing for all if I was gone . I felt I was only a dissapointment and could not do anything right. Well my attempt didn't work I work up the next day and prayed for a break , slowly finding peace with in myself and getting to no myself and being nice to me . I have always been my worst critic my worst enemy I would purposely make a list of things I needed to do that were positive but find a way to advoid them because of my negative thinking .. Now I'm finally free divorced from my Ex AH I feel like one Huge platter is gone from my shoulders , My children don't talk to him because the phone works both ways and why should a child have to call there dad , the children caught on fast that when he did talk to them he still asked about me and very little talk was about them now there chose not to speak to him , and I'm not one to force my kids to do anything they don't want to . He has every other weekend with them but has had them 1 time since May that's his choice , he works 2 days a week but make very good money he could see them during the week if he wanted to but choses not to . The children are finally getting adjusted to him not being active in there life's even before when he drank and sobriety . Job searching is still being done still trying to get housing the list is over a year now , my house is up for sale , found some food banks got food for the week but still reaching out to everything I can get . I'm trying to keep a positive outlook . I'm cravy meetings I read my books I say the serenity pray every time I come across something I can't fix or change . I need to have surgery but don't think Medicaid will cover it since it a pre existing condtion . I have a blood clot on my right side of my brain which causes memory lost eye sight and sever headaches it makes it hard to function and get a lot of my things I need to get done . So this is my update .
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Dear Wisdom Thank you for the update. I am happy that you are finding some support and saddened to read read that your medical condition may require surgery. I will say prayers for a positifve outcome. Please keep sharing.
Sounds like you are doing a good job of taking things one day at a time. My sister is going through something similar with medicaid and it's quite infuriating! You sound strong, though, especially where it comes to talking about the children and how you are caring for them! Praying all works out with your blood clot and wishing you well on your journey in recovery!!
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Never grow a wishbone where your backbone ought to be!
Hi, Wisdom: Thank you for the update on you. I am glad that some of what was bothering you has worked out for you to include food for the family. With the new health care laws, I am surprised that Medicaid could disqualify you for the surgery you need because it is a pre-existing condition. My cousin had cancer before he enrolled in Medicaid and the surgery was performed and Medicaid paid the reasonable and customary on all charges. So, hopefully, what you are fearing won't be true? I'm glad you are choosing to continue the job search, the housing search and doing your readings, too. Many prayers for your continued healing.
I am glad that Grace showed you how worthy and loved you are. I would miss seeing your posts, actually, I would like to see more posts from you It sound like you have wise children...well done, Wisdom. Prayers for healing for your medical condition.
It sound like you have wise children...well done, Wisdom. Prayers for healing for your medical condition.