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loving myself


Since I came out of denial and became aware of myself, I have grown to love myself. I am more willing to look after myself in many ways. Some ways must seem ridiculous to healthy people unaffected by alcoholism. Is there a name for these people, muggles or norms or something?

I wear nail varnish now, loud, bright colours, lol. I wear clothes with colour now, not the dreaded black constantly, although, I do suit black, could still be due to bits of sickness still lurking about. I stopped smoking, almost 2 years, I go to the dentist quite regularly despite my fear, I go to the hairdresser regularly, I wear make up every day, I think about my just for today card, I will look as well as I can. 

There are other ways too, I try hard to behave in a way that is comfortable to me, courteous, respectful, kind as I can be and thats because if I behave badly I feel bad and I want to be kind to myself and have the good feelings. This may sound selfish.

I wont tolerate intolerable behaviour for long either, I know what it is now before I tolerated anything and everything, I didnt know the difference but I cant treat myself badly any longer, I need to work hard to give myself a good life, I have a right like everyone else to have pleasant days and experiences. 

When I learned how to not tolerate intolerable behaviour I was surprised how easy it actually was. Before alanon I couldnt deal with any of it and put up with all of it because I didnt know how to stop it. All the while my confidence, self esteem, self worth deteriorated. I walked with my head down. Not now, I smile at people I walk past, look them right in the eye., they might think im nuts but thats their business.

Thank you alanon, Im a lifelong, committed , gratefull member.x



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smile  Now, that I've finished with my Cheerios and blueberries, I can type a little more.

I remember when I first began reading you, el cee.  Seeing your progress is a delight.  You were a delight to my eyes and heart back then and now I see that you are becoming a delight to your own.  I so enjoy reading your share today - so much so, I decided to put my bowl in the kitchen and half eat my cereal and berries so I could get back and type something more than a smiley face.  Keep on, keeping on, sister.  You represent hope for others just entering this program now.  (((L)))



-- Edited by grateful2be on Saturday 26th of July 2014 07:47:17 AM



-- Edited by grateful2be on Saturday 26th of July 2014 07:47:49 AM

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Thank you grateful, its not always easy to see your own progress but I do feel it, more and more as time goes on. Its not perfect, im never going to be perfect and there is lots of defects to get rid of but I know how to do it now.x

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Thank you for posting this about self care,it's just what I needed to hear today.id forgotten just how to take care of me that's hard to beleive

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I loved reading this el-cee, I laughed at "muggles or norms".
I see myself in your share but I am only about half-way there, I wear nailpolish now in fits and starts but then I let it peel off and look dreadful for a week before I fix it; I still wear mostly black but I add colour now, I have a lovely bright scarf my girl gave me for mothers day, a seriously cute green hat my grandma gave me, etc.
I don't wear makeup often (before ABF I wore it every day) but, i have started brushing and straightening my hair instead of letting it be a giant curly dreadlock all the time. I stopped smoking 3 months ago, can't wait till it's 2 years!. I am in the process of having my poor sad teeth all fixed up in spite of fear, yes, and I tolerate way less awful behaviour AND I conduct myself much more nicely because I know I feel better when I do!!! So yes, yes, yes, yes and yes!! I so relate to everything you wrote here!!!
Thanks for sharing this it reminds me that i am on the right path and if I keep on it things will just keep getting better.
Yay!

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Loved reading this today! I can so relate to everything written here. Thank you for sharing this, I needed to find some positive for my day today!

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Lovely inspiring share, Thank you. I related to so much of it.

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Sounds great. I am trying to care for myself more too. I just got a haircut. Everyone loves it, so do I! I am trying to be more positive about everything. Working on myself, too. Thanks for sharing

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Thank you for the inspiration El-cee, it is really good to see you doing well. 'Tis I who is in awe of you today

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(((LC)) you are a Miracle in Progress:)

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Thank you for your comments, its amazing to me when I look back on the me I was, it wasnt actually me, the whole, free me. Mel, I had to laugh at you with your chipped nails, I look at mine and am reminded it should have came off about a week ago, lol, progress not perfection. I love wild curly hair, mine is as straight as a poker, its funny how we want what we dont have, we could sway, il take lovely thick curly hair anyday.x

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And you aren't done cooking yetwink  This is a reminder for me as to the power of community and having loving, accepting people  witnessing and sup porting our blossoming into who we are as we try on and experiment with a variety of things.  We cannot thrive and flourish alone.  You are a delight elcee.



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el-cee wrote:

Since I came out of denial and became aware of myself, I have grown to love myself. I am more willing to look after myself in many ways. Some ways must seem ridiculous to healthy people unaffected by alcoholism. Is there a name for these people, muggles or norms or something?

I wear nail varnish now, loud, bright colours, lol. I wear clothes with colour now, not the dreaded black constantly, although, I do suit black, could still be due to bits of sickness still lurking about. I stopped smoking, almost 2 years, I go to the dentist quite regularly despite my fear, I go to the hairdresser regularly, I wear make up every day, I think about my just for today card, I will look as well as I can. 

There are other ways too, I try hard to behave in a way that is comfortable to me, courteous, respectful, kind as I can be and thats because if I behave badly I feel bad and I want to be kind to myself and have the good feelings. This may sound selfish.

I wont tolerate intolerable behaviour for long either, I know what it is now before I tolerated anything and everything, I didnt know the difference but I cant treat myself badly any longer, I need to work hard to give myself a good life, I have a right like everyone else to have pleasant days and experiences. 

When I learned how to not tolerate intolerable behaviour I was surprised how easy it actually was. Before alanon I couldnt deal with any of it and put up with all of it because I didnt know how to stop it. All the while my confidence, self esteem, self worth deteriorated. I walked with my head down. Not now, I smile at people I walk past, look them right in the eye., they might think im nuts but thats their business.

Thank you alanon, Im a lifelong, committed , gratefull member.x


I love what you said here. Love the bright polish colours you go girl  



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(((((hugs)))))

sooooo right on.   smile



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