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I have been so busy spring cleaning my home, I feel a busy as bee lately! I have not had the chance to get on here to post and took few minutes of my day to share some of the changes that has happened in the last three weeks. I lost my jobs three weeks ago, which I feel it was meant to be from my HP to take care of me and my health an to temporaly be a house wife until I find another job and been looking into getting back into college and finish up nursing school. My AH has been sober for four weeks and has been working alot since now that Im not working he is the bread winner of this house for both of us. Which its strange for me to be at home and to cook, clean and care of the house. I still cannot get use to the fact of being a house wife, which I have worked since the age of 15 and now I'm 38 and I had never in my life to be a house wife. Its not bad its just strange to be at home and take care of the house and not be at working making a living to be able to pay bills.
Its been great to be stress free for the time being and my anxiety and depression been stable. I still go to my meetings once a week and see my therapist. But my mind tells me that I have to keep going to do more then just being at home cooking an cleaning. I have times that I feel worthless because I'm use to working and making a life for me and bring in income, but I know it will change so I keep my head up and spirits up to do other things like, do my garden now that its getting nicer, if mother nature permits lol and care for my three german sheperds who are my kids and my litter of five puppies who are four weeks old and watch them grow every day has been a blessing.
I'm happy you checked and don't hesitate to keep checking in. You continue to go to your meetings and see your therapist. Keep taking care of you and do what it takes to keep taking care of you.
We are here so don't forget us my friend
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Lord, put your arm around my shoulder and your hand over my mouth
Speak only when you feel that your words are better than your silence.
Good to hear from you Monica. Good self awareness going, feeling your feelings then letting them go. Keep going to the meetings, and grow some nice tomatoes!
When we live with addictions, busyness keeps us distracted. When part of our busyness is taken away, we have a void that believes it needs to be fed. It is our work to feed the void with healthy activities, which you are doing. It may be a good time to increase the intensity of your recovery work, like attending more meetings, participating in the online meetings here, getting a sponsor if you don't have one. It is also a temptation to feed our codependent addictions by "drinking" in the addicts crazy. Be careful.
I have been so busy spring cleaning my home, I feel a busy as bee lately! I have not had the chance to get on here to post and took few minutes of my day to share some of the changes that has happened in the last three weeks. I lost my jobs three weeks ago, which I feel it was meant to be from my HP to take care of me and my health an to temporaly be a house wife until I find another job and been looking into getting back into college and finish up nursing school. My AH has been sober for four weeks and has been working alot since now that Im not working he is the bread winner of this house for both of us. Which its strange for me to be at home and to cook, clean and care of the house. I still cannot get use to the fact of being a house wife, which I have worked since the age of 15 and now I'm 38 and I had never in my life to be a house wife. Its not bad its just strange to be at home and take care of the house and not be at working making a living to be able to pay bills. 
