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Right now it is a blessing not knowing


We have had no contact with our son for two weeks now. I think about him hourly, I pray for him all the time. But I am ashamed to admit that, with him being in another country thousands of miles from us, there is some relief in just not knowing and not seeing what he is doing.  When he is here, I can see what is happening to his emotional and physical health and it drains my energy and my joy. When he is gone, we can almost pretend that he is fine and we can go on living our lives. I know this is not a normal mother behavior but living with the reality of an addiction is just so stressful and saying no is easier when it is said through skype or email.

 

Yesterday we celebrated Easter with twenty eight family members . As it was in the home of a sister who does not drink, no one was drinking at all. And it was fun and loud and joyous. I just wish our kids could see that you do not need alcohol to have a great time. I missed my son yesterday but the old son, the one who did not have to drink to enjoy life or to hide from his pain.



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Picture deacon laying her son in a basket and wrapping him in a blanket and taking the basket down the street to a doorstep and putting the basket outside the door and then ringing the doorbell and walking away.  The name under the doorbell?  God.  I've done that similar thing...cried till I thought I'd die and still kept walking away.  In time my alcoholic/addict wife got clean and sober and today is my living example of humility thru the grace of my Higher Power.   (((((hugs))))) smile



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I undersand Deacon Prayers for your family

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I, too, understand, Deacon. I am glad you were able to enjoy Easter in a way that is meaningful and fun for you. Getting out of the way of your son as he finds his own way is a very loving thing to do. Good for you. Trusting him and his HP sounds healthy and normal to me. What isn't normal is chasing our grown kids around trying to get them to see things the way we see things and do things the way we want them to do them. I learned that my worry and concern didn't help my son one bit but it sure made me unhappy. I'm glad you chose to do the next right thing and enjoy yourself with family who don't drink!

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Hugs Deacon,

I always figure that the God of my understanding does the best work when I don't know what is going on because it is far to easy (for me) to meddle, and muddle things up.

You are right where you need to be and your son is in the same position.

Hugs S :)

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Faith minus vulnerability and mystery equals extremism.  If you've got all the answers, then don't call what you do "faith". - Brene Brown

"Whatever truth you own doesn't own you" - Gary John Bishop

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