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a feeling of calmness now that the holidays are over
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Anyways get sooo afraid/scared (dont really know the word) of the holidays that they are really glad to have things get back to their chaotic normal?
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better news
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2006 had a better start last night than new year's eve.
Yesterday I wrote about my husband's bad new year scene at my friend's party. He had insulted someone at the party and then he became extremely difficult and wouldn't come home with me. He wasn't physical, but it had the potential t...
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Beginning Again
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Hi,
I just wanted to wish everyone a Happy 2006. May it be all that we want and expect it to be.
I am new here. Been to chat a few times and attended a lot of the New Years Marathon meetings. Learned a lot.
I am making a goal to become more familiar with and use the 12 Steps and work them. I don't have a f2f me...
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ever wish you had someone to give you
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a hug? but maybe thats being too selfish?
Sometimes I just wish I could have a hug
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Barbara
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Really confused....
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I have been feeling off the last 3 days - dont really know what it is. I know I have felt anger towards my ex, sadness, confusion, doubt, the whole gammut...but I cant shake it off very well the past few days. I dont really even know what was really going on in his life when I walked away - I was 90...
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Well, I've done it!
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On the 21st of December, I went to court, along with my A, and divorced him. We will stay together as partners,hopefully for life, but I feel so relieved now that I will no longer be financially responsible for his actions. He is sober now, but I know that sooner or later he will take a three-day binge agai...
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Angel of Death...I am afraid I may loose her
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Today is New Years....
I just went to pick up my great Grandma.I am soo close to her.She is the best.When I got there to help my grandpa put her in the car...she did not know who I was.I had a tear rolling down.As we were driving in the car..she constantly repeated the word red and black,and said her numbe...
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Daughter of alcholic
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Good Evening. This is my first time posting here. Mom just admitted tonight that she has a drinking problem and needs help. She has been drinking heavily for over 10 years. While I am VERY excited about this I am also very scared and confused. I want to be able to support her and help her the best I ca...
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Happy New Year everyone!
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It's been a long but fairly nice weekend, I have learned I am stronger than I thought and even if I fall backwards into bad habits I can see the light faster than I ever thought possible if I take the time to look at myself and be kind to myself.
A few days before New Years Eve my A asked me if he could make me di...
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2006 The year of CHANGE
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It is hard to believe that it is 2006. 2005 was a very difficult year. In many ways, I was sick and needed surgery, my husband ( an alcoholic ) and I seperated twice, and my job has become more stressful than ever. I can say that in 2005 I began finding myself. In July I found this site and began working on me...
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disgusted
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I am so disgusted with my A! the only thing that keeps me from losing it is the fact that I KNOW I don't want to stay in this relationship, and I am doing what I can to work on leaving it. He came home last night so drunk! he tried to fight b/c he knew I was mad, and as mad as I really was, and as disgusted, I tried HAR...
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last night was terrible
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a real nightmare. My friends threw a new year's eve party. My husband drank too much (he's an alcoholic who recently thought he could try drinking sociably). He overdid it and he made a scene. I was and am horribly embarrassed and upset. Then when ...
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Need someone to alt for me!
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Hi all,
I wont be available for the next two Sunday meetings. I alt for Megan and need someone to replace me due to the fact I am going to be in the hospital. The dates are Jan 8th and the 15th. Thanks!!!
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happy new year
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hi everyone , i just wanted to wish all of you & your families a very happy & healthy new year!! hopefully 2006 will be a better year for us all.
hugs chrissy -- Edited by chrissy at 23:10, 2005-12-31
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Miracles are happening
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Hi everyone! I have always wanted to open my own business, but never did anything about it. Well, about six months ago I applied for a women's entreprenuer program. They had 110 applicants. All of the applicants had to go to a screening. Only 10 would be chosen to go through the program. I kept praying. T...
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"where we are today is exactly where our higher power would have us be"
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Took my One Day At A Time book to Church with me this morning. When I have a few mins before Mass starts I read the page for the day.
There was a line in today's that says "where we are today is exactly where our higher power would have us be". I read that while in Church!
People I know from Curves & work...
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Barbara
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The Gift of Alanon
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Hi all,
This time last year I was such a mess and so discouraged. This year it has been the best holiday. No expectations and very low keyed. My two boys came home from college. I just told them that I didn't have much planned or purchased. They said fine. Since their dad moved to another state, I l...
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nmike
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Pearls Among Swine
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I just had a thought ~ after this "cyber fight" I have been in with my mother this week - she had the nerve to tell me, when I just had majorly distrubing news - that she "hasn't been happy with my behaviour for quite some time" ~ well I hit the roof!!!
For this passed month I have been her buffer with the "A" ~...
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debilyn
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Hi just want to make sure you and your menagerie at Eden are okay and hope you have a great 2006. Luv Leo xx
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Thank You and Happy New Year
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As the new year approaches, I no longer live in ignorant bliss that this day symbolizes great things will happen nor do I live in dread that this day will be a continuation of the drudgery of the past.
I walk along side each of you who have touched my lives innumerably and for which I am so grat...
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Need some prayers
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I have decided I want out of my relationship with my A. I have been thinking about it and going back and forth on it for quite some time now, but tonight my decision was clear. He said he was going out after work, and I asked him if he could wait until tomorrow, he said point blank "no" I was shocked. I do...
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Happy New Day!
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Hi Everyone! Just want to share with you what I received in my e-mail from Hazelden this morning. Some good reminders to take even the New Year one day at a time!
Best to all,
~seachange
Today's thought is:
Reflection for the Day
In the old days, I saw everything in terms of for...
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I don't understand
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I don't get why my A says he is going out, and when I ask him not to, goes anyway, THEN calls me and wakes me up to tell me he is going to another bar. Why bother to call? He didn't care that I didn't want him to go in the first place, so why wake me to tell me where he is going? He says "I am just trying to be a nice guy"....
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Happy New Year~2006
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Good morning everyone and Happy New Year!
Hope you all had a wonderful New Year's Eve. I spent the evening watching videos with my son and his g/f ..it was a quiet night, but a nice one..I was in bed around 11:30 and a great sleep...My A called me on Friday and we had a great visit for 4 hours. H...
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Newbie here!
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Hi everyone, my name is Kelly. I'm married to an addict (everything from compulsive gambling, most recently, to binge drinker, to compulsive EVERYTHING he does). Hitting the bottom of the barrel recently (me too) and he's agreed to go to another in-patient (last one 10 years ago, before we met). We h...
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I apologize
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For anyone that it was in the chat room last night, I apologize, especially to you iabob.
I have been hurt & upset all week, I went off like a roman candle but there is no excuse for my behaviour, I have no right to take it out on anyone.
I is hard being abused & hurt, we become like dogs sometimes...
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Happy New Year!
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I wish to extend a blessed, peaceful, renewing New Year, to all my wonderful new friends I have made since finding this website, I am so happy to be here, not as often as I wish I could be here, but it has helped me tremendously. I just know in my heart, that 2006 is going to be a New Year, from all the life lesso...
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Trouble getting in chat? Try this...
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Another way to get into chat is to go to www.mipchat.net (courtesy of another mip member - thank you!)
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Happy New Year!!!!!
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smile
HAPPY NEW YEAR !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
BEST WISHES TO ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thinking of you,
Rosa
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Living in Limbo, hopefully not for long
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Just read Diva’s post and it prompted me to write something about my situation. Seems strange to be writing this, but congratulations Diva. You're in a unique situation, but if it works for you, great. I realize I have no right to judge other people and what’s good for them. I'm technically in the same s...
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All I Want For Xmas
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Dear God,
Please, please, bring recovery to my son. See my tears, listen to my heart, I'm on knee's once again hear my cry (((((((((((I LOVE My SON)))))))))))) How long must I wait? Please listen to your servents prayers. I'm not asking for money, diamonds, or comforts for myself&n...
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love addiction
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Is anyone familiar with the book "Facing Love Addiction" by Pia Mellody?
I have been reading it, and there are parts that are true to my life. I definitely have been attracted to avoidance addicts.
I have been in Al Anon for over six months, and am definitely becoming healthier. I am dating a...
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mollyann
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wanting to be selfish
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I have not mentioned that I live next door to a drug dealer. On New Years Eve the family (which is a long layered collection of drug dealers, enablers, whatevers in generations...of them from small children to grand parents to sundry hangers on) usually have a huge party which is accompanied by firewo...
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Cleaning out our closets
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The last day of the year, here we are. Makes it easy to clean out our closets, huh? This is such a wonderful, safe place. I know that we all enter 2006 with common resolutions: health, peace, prosperity.
I am i...
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Sherry
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I'm Not Doing So Good
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I've mentioned some of this in other posts, but I need (for ME) to do a detailed rundown of what is going on with me and my A daughter. To review: she's been living on my couch for 6 years. She went to three different schools and got neither certificates nor degrees. She is sick a...
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carrying the weight of the world
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I am trying really hard to put what I am learning into practice and I am faced with a situation. One thing I do know is that I am a fixer, I want to jump in and fix things for everyone. This has been true in my entire relationship with my A. When we were first married I pushed to fight for custody of my step daught...
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New Years Eve - so far Im doing ok
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Went to Curves and my weekly Sat morn meeting. Came home, got movies at Blockbuster and Chinese food for son and myself. Then off to an afternoon chick flick with a friend.
Im now in for the night. A husband has 2 friends over drinking in the basement. They have chinese food, shrimp, stuffed mushrooms...
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happy new year
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wishing all of you a very happy new year if i dont see you later :)
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I am trying......
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My A didn't come home from work again. Out doing heaven knows what. I am sure he is at some person's house... freaking out right about now.. cause I am going to go psycho when he gets home... and the day will be wasted in fighting.
I think I am going to try something different today... I don't think I am g...
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A Bed
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In my last post I went over the most recent stuff about my daughter. Her long trip to Florida to try to live with her dad and when that didn't work, driving to Phoenix to live with her cousin (nice person.) Within a week, she was involved in an auto accident and in the hospital for 13 days.&nbs...
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Progression is Scary-long
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Over the last couple of months I have suspected that my husband has been actively drinking again. However, I do not look for the proof and I do not question him on it. The progression came to a crescendo last night. Early in the day I expressed some feelings I had to my husband - of whic...
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JUST FOR TODAY, EVEN FOR 5 MINUTES
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I would dread "Just for today" and tell myself I only needed to make it through tath day. When I struggled I would call my sponsor. Thank goodness she was available. I called her many times.
As I became stronger, I practiced other suggestions on the Just for Today card. I love that piece of liter...
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I miss my mother
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I can't put into words how much I miss my mother. She had great difficulty when I was a child being a mother because she was orphaned so young at 11. At that time she had to take on the role of mother to four younger brothers and sisters. She had 7 older brothers and sisters but all were out on the...
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Thanks for chairing
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Thanks to all the moderators, and chair and co chair persons,,for making this wonderful , life saving, site available for all of us. ....Continued success for this site, as I have been to several and this one is the best!,,,,,Thanks so much for making this possible,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,...
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for those having problems w/ chat, you might consider.....
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For those that are having problems w/ the Java chat, there are a couple of options for you.
Another Java option:
http://mipchat.kows.org/
Or you try the mIRC client that is linked at the bottom of the chatroom page.
http://www.mirc.com/
The server we are on is irc.webmaster.com,...
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He passed on
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Early Wednesday morning my Father In Law passed away. He never regained consciouness since being taken to the hospital a week ago.
This past week and especially these past few days I have run the gammit with emotions, starting with guilt. I have fought so much with this man over the years. He enables...
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~ New Year ~ Big Changes
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This entire year had been a long hard end to a 20 year cycle of depression, anxiety & suicidal ideations. I have done little with myself in 6 years, since I left my ex (addict, husband) ~ but the darkest of my emotional funk seems to have lifted. Maybe my trying to OD has had an effect on th...
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oh no john, server messages again!
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Hi.
Can't get in again and time for the marathon. Others too? It's the 31st of December, Sat.,about 1:30 pm German time.
Can you help? Will try again later.
A frustrated toto again....sorry
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I Have Joined the Cant Get In Club
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I suppose it serves me right, was feeling rather pleased with self - had no probs with Java - till tonight!
When I had tried several times, to no avail, I decided to download mIRC - and, eventually, that is where I am at - I have downloaded and installed, now, I have no idea what to do with it! When I try to...
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i may blow!!!
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right i give up, my brain can't take this !, can i get in or not?
twice today i have been in the room chatting and now i can't get in for love nore money (boo hoo).
what on earth is going on? never had a problem before, and i know i'm not the only one..... BOO HOO HOO. I'M NOT A HAPPY BUNNY! :furi...
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sometimes quickly, sometimes slowly
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You know that phrase in the closing that is read at f2f meetings, the part that says "sometimes quickly, sometimes slowly"? I found myself thinking about that during the last ten days visiting my family for the holidays. I had been dreading certain aspects of this visit, knowing how things usually...
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my journey
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Been offline for a bit now, I missed our home here more than anything. I
needed you all so badly.
The disease finally beat me up enough for me to not want to give it any thought
anymore.
My A is just that, an A. A full blown walking waste of a man. His disease threw me on the floor and I did not even see...
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A New Year's Wish
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Hi roomies,
I thank all of you who have offered me love, support, encouragement, hope, strength and giggles this past year. I couldn't have done this without you!
As we leave this year behind, I hope we will be able to leave the past behind us too. This time last year my A had relapsed badly. I cam...
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Lonely no more
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I went to my home ftf meeting tonight. and as usual I heard just what I needed to hear on many levels. The one thing that struck me the most was as one lady shared she said that she's never lonely anymore. But in her 30 year marriage she was always lonely! That is just what I had be thinking about today. I l...
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need some help
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My A has been in the detox for over a week. We have spoken everyday, it has gone quite well. He had decided that I was the only person that he wanted to talk to (as far as family was concerned) and that was OK with me. His bed date for the rehab is Jan 3rd. Yesterday i went into the city to spend some...
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from the brink--- i find life
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When we are reduced to our last extreme, there is no further evasion. The choice is a terrible one. It is made in the heart of darkness ... when we who have been destroyed and seem to be in hell miraculously choose God! --Thomas Merton
There are many ways we benefit from a life crisis. Perhaps none of u...
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A happy next years
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hello to all,
feel free to substitute in if
a man for if an a:
Its from a classmate
If a man was..
If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.
If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.
Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.
Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save y...
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today's latest
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The manipulations continue, but I am staying strong, at least on the outside. I went to the dr. yesterday, having chest pains and tightness. I had a viral infection about two months ago that caused me to get pericarditis. Well, I guess it is getting worse again, maybe stress, anxiety etc. Ya think? I ha...
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Expectations
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I posted previously about being depressed about my A. He says he wants to be a big part of my life but I haven't heard from him since Monday. I think the depression comes partly from expectations. At first I thought that maybe my husband and I could be friends but I was only fool...
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chicken? (c:
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loved that.
thank you for your wise support. All i give is from hp. talks thru our hearts uno?
Well I tell ya it is what I WENT thru. Yep every day has been a bit better, pain is less in
every way. Got one of those memory foam neck pillows and finally slept. Kept
warm soggy things on my neck, no not...
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debilyn
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